A Required Outlet

Sometimes I need an outlet or something of that sort. I have way too many thoughts running wildly in my mind. I think a lot and come to conclusions about everything I read, see, and listen. I observe a lot too and store them inn which could just resurface anytime, anywhere for me to ponder on. And also, I read a lot of books and think a lot of them. Amidst all these there are personal stuffs. Past, present and future. Possibilities, outcomes of all these three juggling in mind.
Which is why I zone out multiple times in a day. And also, this is why I write. Just to put down some weight through words on paper or screen.

It would have been nice to have a lot of people around me. I could share most of them or thier presence would have kept my mind busy. Humans as an outlet. Something happened over these years that distanced me from the crowd, from society. Or maybe I created that for me. Which has its good and bad. The good, I know it with all the experiences. The bad is I don't know how to get back there. Back to having or being among a group of people. I have forgotten what its like to be a friend in a group of friends. I have forgotten what friendship is.

So, there is lot flowing into me, proccessing inside with no Outlet found.