Things Fall Apart

Things Fall Apart

I see long nights as my savior
from my feelings.
When asked about what I am doing,
I only say I am listening to audiobooks.

You have gone a long time ago,
I still stare at our photo.
It makes me smile, I say.
Deep down, I know it aches.
I bid farewell to my favorite clothes,
they give me nightmares now.
At least the window near my room
would offer me new existence
It doesn't, it's a mere expectancy.

I can't trust anyone,
afraid of love again.
I only trusted someone
till our end began.
I don't want to tell myself
that things fall apart
when it shouldn't have.
My voice aches for your presence
only to realize absence in it.
I don't regret anything
not even us.
I believe in true love
but not for us.
She believes in it.
It's not her fault.
She always stood by me,
but things fall apart.

I don't have hopes now
yet I hope for something.
I trust in 'meant to be together'
but for us, nothing.
I can go on writing about this
but this isn't worth your time.
She will write a tale, live to tell it.

Anushka Gaikwad
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