English Ghazal: Who am I to be?

Who am I to be?

My heart withers like roses, still their fragrance is peace to me.
The sky and ice within me are deserts many, which is Greece to me.

Moonlight Sonata brings heaven to earth, its chimes are Für Elise to me.
When I smile through the cracks, my dog tooth shines as a piece of me.

My anklets ring out like sirens, my ghungroos are police to me.
I close my eyes and visualize, my desires are caprice to me.

I write this Ghazal, it suits my aura, astrology is Aries to me.
My clouds leave me in tears, I realize crying is a release for me.

Though young they mock me for my silver hair, it's but a breeze by me.
The world is painted, my camera captures its beauty, this brings bliss to me.

Be it Antarctica or the Himalayas, top of the world is always Swiss to me.
Raindrops on my cheeks, as peaceful as each drop is my mother's kiss for me.

I'm tired, afraid and weary, my future is a disease to me.
My love is blurry, my hate is indifference, death has ceased for me.

My life unclear, who are you Anushka?
I am many, I am none, I radiate colors, diamond is leased to me.
And through my doubts, through my words
I say, Anushka be who you want to be.

~Anushka Gaikwad